and not all those who return feel found. i though it was time to revisit blogging, dispite my laptop caps button not working and several keys now missing because as yet i still haven't gotten our kitten a sctatch post.... i have felt so lost in the past few years, pathetic as that may sound. following my mother's day postin i just couldn't find the soul in it anymore. i felt so many things were missing in my life, that i wasn't functioning well as a single mummy and my every parenting decision was being questioned or mocked as poor judgement and more selfishly, that i needed to find someone to share life with, i had so little adult conversation, so little anything that i felt i was disappearing......lost
i used to love venturing and being lost as a child but as an adult loosing focus is not such a happy place. it is all too easy to wish for more, or worse to envy, and i have done. it's that very state of mind that looses you in the first place. the most blessed years of my life have no doubt also been the most difficult also but you wise yourself up.....eventually, and smell the flowers and get on with. i only pray i keep finding my way and seth grows with a strengthenrd sense of his own direction. we'll get their, as for love, time waits for no man.....and perhaps neither should i..... time to get lost in little ventures of daily living, and all else will follow or pail into insignificance.... either way, i am ready for it.
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